My Life, My Crisis

I'm getting used to having a good rest at home after work and not studying at night.
( I don't miss law school but I miss law school. >.<)

I'm getting used to the daily routine of going to work every morning and be part of the working class.

But something is missing. Do I really love what I'm doing? I'm craving for something and I still can't find it. I guess it's my career path. At the age of 24, I want to have a serious plan for my future. I'm still in a crisis of whether to pursue my law studies or find a job that I will enjoy.

I'm working in a law office but I'm looking for something more. Yes, guilty as charged, I'm still sending resume's to different companies for different job positions. I guess I'm doing this because I'm not contented with what I'm doing. I want a job that I will enjoy. And I'm still waiting for what they call, "the calling".

But anyway, I'm waiting and still enjoying somehow. I just hope that a great twist will happen in my life, a positive twist I mean. 

Good day y'all! :) 

To Bands: Some Pointers During Gigs

Band members as well as the gig goers have different reasons why they attend gigs. Some would want to just chill and drink with friends. Some would really attend the gig just to make sure that they got to see their favorite band perform.

One thing is for sure, we are all there to enjoy.

Last week when I went to a gig, I suddenly thought of making an article regarding performing bands/artists.

These are just simple pointers for band members while on stage playing during a gig:

1. Before you start playing or singing, mention the name of your band first.
2. Don't speak too fast or too loud that the audience can hardly understand what you guys are saying.
3. Make sure that you promote your album, t-shirt, gig skeds, if you have.
4. Connect with the audience.
5. If there are requests that you don't know, make sure to thank the one who requested it and say that you'll try playing it next time so they should watch you guys again.
6.Don't forget to thank the sponsors and the audience.
7.Promote the venue where you are playing.
8. And for me, the most important, IF YOU HAVE ANY ORIGINAL SONG, BEFORE PLAYING IT, MENTION THAT IT'S YOUR ORIGINAL SONG. Sometimes, it's important to gig goers to know that a band do have a compo.


And there it goes, people. :)

I wrote this one based on my observations while attending gigs. :P

This is what I'm craving for..

Photo by Stonefish.Co

 It's quite a long time since I've crashed a gig like this. Woah.. And now, here comes the date! See yah folks! December 4 event yung peg ko! :P

Number 4 at Charlie's Grind and Grill. :P

This photo was taken at Charlie's Grind and Grill, Greenhills on August 3, 2012 when I am celebrating my birthday with my closest law school friends Jam, Kish, and Sny. 

So lucky to have gotten this number sign!! Ang saya ko nung binigay ito sa counter. Haha. I miss them so muchie.. :/

Bye for now?!

Law school, minahal kita, nag enjoy ako kasi ang dami kong natutunan, ang dami kong naging kaibigan pero sadyang mapaglaro ang tadhana, pasensya na, hindi muna kita kayang ipaglaban ngayon. My health plus my passion are both below 100%. Unfair yun para sa akin kapag nilaban kita ngayon. Basta, magpapahinga muna ako. Gagawin ko muna yung mga bagay na gusto kong gawin. I love you and I will always do! :)

Papa, sorry po for disappointing you, I know you want me to be a lawyer as soon as possible. I love you so much and I want to make you happy pero this is my decision for now. I love you so much pa! I hope that I can make you happy in my own little ways. Thank you for being there for me pati po si mama. Salamat po sa suporta, pagkalinga at pag-intindi.

Sulong pa rin! :)

Habang ang lahat ay online ant nanggagalaiyi kasi hindi ma-access ang FEU portal for the online grades, ako, for the first time ay hindi kinakabahan. Hindi dahil sa alam kong pasado ako sa lahat ng subjects ko kung hindi dahil alam ko na ang dapat kong gawin bago matapos ang taon na ito.

Lalaban pa sana ako kung nakikisama ang kalusugan ko pero tama na, ayoko ng abusuhin ang brain cells ko, baka maubos ng sobrang aga,

Oo, sinusumpa ko ang migraine ko kasi ang dami kong hindi nagagawa dahil dito. Lalo na nung umatake pa ito nung finals week, mas nawalan na talaga ako ng gana. My seizures were so disturbing and I feel like bursting in pain. 

Noong highschool hanggang college ako, I was under medication. My neurologist, after almost 5 years of treatment finally told me and my mom, "graduate ka na!". Tuwang tuwa si mama noon hindi tulad noong sinabi sa kanya ng doctor ko nung na-diagnose pa lang ako ng sakit ko. Nakita ko siyang umiiyak, bakit daw pati ako (kasi unang na-diagnose yung pangatlo kong kapatid), the doctor said maybe the genes of mama and papa are not compatible. 

At yun na nga, nung grumaduate na ako sa sakit ko, pati yung kapatid ko, tuwang tuwa kaming lahat. Pero bakit recently sunod-sunod na naman ang seizures ko? Ayoko na magpa ECG at MRI. Natatakot akong malaman na baka bumalik na naman yung sakit ko. It's a curse for me. 

I was an epileptic patient before pero it's not what you imagine na nanginginig at nagba-bubbles yung bibig. Sa akin is mild epilepsy, ang seizure ko is super duper to the highest level na sakit ng ulo. My sister naman is epileptic din, yung sa kanya mas malala pero magaling na rin siya. Bigla na lang siyang hihimatayin then nagvaviolet yung color ng skin pero no bubbles in the mouth pa rin.

So ayun, FYI na rin, hindi lahat ng epileptic ay nagbabubbles ang bibig o nanginginig ang katawa.

As for my next path? Bahala na po si Batman. Chos. Seriously, this time, sana wala ng pressure sa family ko. I want to do things without pressure. Yung kaya lang ng katawan at kalusugan ko. 

Lord, please guide me. To my family, please be patient. <3

I need to be strong!

I can hardly breathe and my feet feels weak.

I cried. I stumbled. I've been so down for quite a while. Silently weeping at night and my heart feels like bursting. Got no one to talk to because I don't feel like doing so. I just wanted to be alone and figure things out. I want to figure out how to move forward despite my feet stucked in the ground.

Mama, Papa, I'm sorry if I'm feeling this way. I shouldn't have felt even a single sign of giving up because of you guys because this is your dream too but I failed. Mama, Papa, I'm not a perfect daughter, I'm hard-headed and stubborn but God knows that I love you so much. Please forgive me if I'll soon make a decision that might hurt you.

I'm just counting the days and I'll condition myself to face my fears. God, please guide me. I've been away from you for quite a time. Hindi ko na ginagawa yung mga dating ginagawa ko para mapakita na mahal ko kayo. Sorry God. Nasaktan lang po ako. This time, I really need you. Please help me to be strong.

I WANNA SHOUT!!!!! :'(