Loving you Silently

Speak, but I'm scared to hear the words I don't wanna hear.
Move,  but I hope it won't break my heart.

Can we talk about it, and make a decision that is worth it?


I am smiling, laughing, or giggling..
I am on the vulnerable and just go with the flow.
But i guess I can't fake the reflection in  my eyes.
I guess I'm just so stupid to invest something that at the end I'll just regret.

The blame is on me.
Who am I? I am nothing.
We're just friends and nothing more.
I should should not feel like this or rant as if I have a right because I really don't have.

Yes, I guess I should stop staring.
And yes, I should just love you silently.
Without no one knowing about it because I'm tired answering their questions.
I will be contented with this.
I will be contented loving you from afar.

Visiting Tito Oscar

It's October 31, 2011. We decided to go to Manila Memorial Park today rather that on November 1 to avoid the traffic as well as the bunch of people. We stayed there for almost five hours. I prayed and reminisce those days when tito was still alive. We really miss him but I know that he's already happy together with our God.

Me, my sisters Joy and Jane, as well as my cousin Russel just killed the time singing and eating. lol
It's just sad that tita zeny (my tito's wife) was no there, as well as Papa (brother of tito oscar) and mama was not there with us. Tita is in the states any my parents are in bicol.

Anyway, what is important is we remember tito and he will always be in our hearts. It's year 2009 when he passed but it feels like it's still fresh. Every now and then, we hope that he is here with us though we know that he is now in a more peaceful place.

WE love you tito..