Rain Rain Rain

I can make it through the rain, I can stand up once again, on my own... lalalala.. (singing..)


Got three cases to read, got to attend the 2pm MDA at school, haven't taken a bath. haha.


I hate getting my umbrella and shoes wet so I'll just wait until the rain stop. Oh well, thinking what time it will stop pisses me off.


Don't get me wrong, I love the rain. I love having a cup of coffee plus the puff while listening to the rain.I also love watching the rain. It stops my time.

love.hate.life.

I don't hesitate in leaving a mark in someone's life especially if i love that person.. at least when everything's done, I've done my part and I'm happy I've touched his/her life...

I love and I love deeply and truly..

I cry and I cry not for hollow reasons..

I laugh and I laugh wholeheartedly..

I smile and I smile sincerely..

I've got my life messed up again.

I've got my heart hurt again..

When can I feel really loved..

When can I feel really secured..

I guess it will just be a dream..

I wanna vanish right now..

07mar2011

SSShhhh

Just a look in your eyes, i know it was you

You don't have to say anything because the feeling is not new

Let me speak my words and feel what I feel

So you'll know that this heart beats for real

Sshhh.. Don't say anything

Because I'm not expecting from you a bit of a thing

Let me finish my thing

And let me go as if I've said nothing

Maybe this is my own song

And to  no one it really belongs

I'll continue singing

Even if the stars stop shining

Ssshhh....Don't say anything

Let me finish what I need to speak

I never intended to finish this for you to peek

I just want to let my song grow

Even if I am about to go

Don't miss me and

Don't say a word before I take my bag with me

Because I might stay and just stick like a clay

Forgive me if I can't look at you in the eyes

Because what I felt before should be as cold as an ice

Should be forgotten...

Because it's just all sudden...

29October2011

06:16am

YOU

I don’t know what to say but I’m trying anyway.

Words are spinning in my head, and I don’t know why I’m holding back.

Maybe I don’t want to face questions or those judging eyes.

Sometimes my mind tells me  to just tell you what im feeling.

But something is stopping me.

Maybe I just want things the way that they should be.

If i let you know about the way i feel,

I don’t know  what you’re gonna do.

You are near yet so far.

You hold the key to my heart,

And without you, it can never be opened.

Now, I’ll just keep my heart locked.

This romance that's calling me from afar is such a conflict.

I don’t know where to start or maybe it just have to end.

I’ll just look at you behind that glass.

I’ll just keep watching you forever and imagine that you are mine .

Because i know that you’ll never be mine.

This time it's for real..

I ought to stand when standing seems to be not so easy.

I pretend that I’m tough enough so that people around me can lean on me.

It was never easy.

Crying alone... Standing alone... Fighting alone...

Now, I want to be a real tough girl.

The one who can strongly face the challenges and never back down.

The one who can stand alone and know how to handle things logically.

I’m now preparing myself to be that girl.

That girl that I always dream to be.

I hate the word LOVE

I am supposed to be happy. I should be. That's what I commanded myself to be.

But lately, I'm distracted. 

And this force is killing me.

I want to fight it.

I want to win the battle.

But slowly it's consuming me.

That' why I hate the word "love".

Don't judge me easily because you don't know me.

I prasied the word "love" before, now I'm cursing it.

Spare my family and my religion because real love binds me with them.

Alright. I rest my case. Love makes the world go round but not for me. Not now.