"Let go of what's done, focus on what's next."
"Wala na ako masabi. Basta kapit lang Guys."
"Yeah..lahat nga ng mga nakikita nameng lumalabas grabe parang gusto na mag give up eh.."
"Taxed. Doomed."
"How's your second sunday? Hope everything's well. Fight lang! You're half way there, Atty.!😊"
Some of the messages I've read after the second Sunday exams.
After the morning exam, which is Civil Law, I want to give up already but I convinced myself to continue the fight that I started. Yung tipong nag-aral ka naman pero bakit ganun? Then come taxation in the afternoon. Mas bumaba confidence ko. Nevertheless, inayos ko gamit ko, tried not to cry, lumabas ako ng building, then waited for my friend. Sa una hindi namin alam sasabihin sa isa't-isa. Eventually, we decided to recall our answers. Ang hirap talaga ng Sunday na ito, we concluded.
After dinner, together with the boyfie and his family, we got a massage. Nakaidlip ata ako then naisip ko yung questions and ibang sagot ko sa tax. Nung patapos na ang massage, hindi ko mawari kung panaginip ko ba yun o talagang iniisip ko siya. Sabi ko sa sarili ko, I don't want to be insane because of the bar exams.
I went home and then tried to keep off my mind sa exams. Pero kahit nasa bahay na ang dami pa ring pumapasok sa utak ko. Sabi ko nga parang hindi ko na ma distinguish ang reality sa dreams. And that's a little scary yet funny. Anyway, everyone else is saying na move on and charge again for the next Sunday. So I stopped browsing my tax book and decided to just browse the social media. And then boom, my feed is full of Sunday exam rants and disappointments. I want to rant too pero I don't have too much energy to do that. I am lucky enough to have friends and family who loves pushing me and lifting me up. My friends who took the exam also share the same sentiments regarding the exam. All of us felt down but we decided to stay on the battle, keep the faith, and continue the worthy fight. Pinili namin ito so papanindigan namin for ourselves, for our family and for our friends who fight side by side with us in this.
Two more Sundays and we can finally release ourselves from emotional, physical and financial distress. Taking the bar exams is very taxing and takes a lot of courage. It is an exam that will make you question your intelligence, faith and confidence. For the past two Sundays, they gave 30 minutes extensions for each subject because the exams were too long. Well, at least, we're thankful for that pero yung iba, at ako rin, na wala ng masabi para pahabain ang sagot, ay nagpasa na lang ng medyo maaga sa oras na itinakda. Wala na rin naman kasing mapipiga. Maybe some won't understand what we're going through but that's okay because you don't want to be in this situation anyway. Some would say encouraging words, some would just roll their eyes and just say it's just like any other exams or maybe na ginusto namin ito. And that's okay, it don't really matter. We are entitled to our own opinions. Thus, we are entitled with ours too, so don't be a troll. Peace out!
I woke up at 12 noon today and I decided to write in my blog to let my frustrations out. Another day, another chance to everything. And yes, we are keeping the faith.
